Monday, September 7, 2015

The Darkest Night update:

I now have a bit of clarity.The trauma that I went through was to reconnect me with the humility that I had lost and which I must have on my spiritual journey.
September will be a tumultuous month and it has started for many already. No one will escape it ,it must be dealt with one way or another but denial will simply not work. Everyone will have to choose one way or another!!

Friday, August 14, 2015

The Darkest Night cont'd

As a result of a massive alcoholic binge which became a near death experience  only halted by my going to Detox,I have entered into a prolonged period of recovery which in itself is quite traumatic.
The expected period of convalescence has been over a month now and seems to have dovetailed into a significant spiritual upgrade.
It has left me for the time being in a state of non existence where my ego identity has been suspended and I feel as though in a dreamworld.
I have no idea how much of the old "me"will re-emerge but must accept that only the useful parts will come back.I know that I must place service to others foremost in my life but await guidance on how that may look.
The only thing that I know at this point is that all will be for the best ultimately.

Saturday, August 8, 2015

The Darkest Night.

I am going through the strangest time of my life. Nothing compares to this in my experience so far.It will be an ongoing blog because of the vast changes that are taking place in my psyche. More to come.

Tuesday, June 9, 2015

1966 And All That!!

"We will neither regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it" ....those words resonate so strongly now as I go back to re-incorporate some of my experiences from the past into the present. If I just take the year 1966 as an example it tells me so much about my life now. I was in an extraordinarily hedonistic mindset having been dumped the year before by a girlfriend who I was convinced thought me as inexpendable as I imagined myself to be. As a reaction to the unimaginable I attacked my life with a ferocity born of quiet desperation. The orchestra that I was a member of went from strength to strength dragging me along with it. We played for a month in Daytona Beach in the summer concertizing and partying in equal measure. There were memorable performances throughout the year and frankly some unmemorable ones too,especially in Daytona all couched in the maelstrom of what became known as "Swinging London"... to be continued