I am over the moon at the sheer implausibility of my life.....done with conforming and the abomination of pc behaviour.Living in a town still blowing smoke up it's arse for having staged a successful Olympics on stolen First Nations land and our money,I am appalled by the sheer hypocrisy of it all but must start with myself.
I went to an opening of a new homeless shelter yesterday and saw a man with a shopping cart going in.The gut wrenching thought that his world travelled with him in that little cart hit me full force.I have a mentor for a new life now.She asked me if I was a "good neighbour" and I had to admit to myself afterwards that I was only in my head....still making by my inaction pathetic excuses for a world that allows children of God to die every day because it is not profitable to help them.Perhaps she doesn't know that she is my inspiration but no matter.Her light and love shine so brightly for me that it is not necessary to say anything....just to BE!!
Thursday, December 9, 2010
Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Bare Yourself!!
....funny how the ego/identity fears vulnerability....likens it to death really."The Meek Shall Inherit the Earth"surely means that rather than run from being vulnerable we should embrace it,welcome it into our lives with open arms and hearts.We are o.k. with little children and animals but my oh my,how we seem to fear one another!
"Greater Love Hath No Man Than This",or"'tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" speaks of "A Love Supreme" as Coltrane reminded us through his horn.A love without boundaries which crashes through the paltry world of convention that we and our children may live transformed.
We must know "The Meaning of the Blues"in our lives and in our music for they are as one."'Trane,Bird,Lady Day....they knew and paid the price so that we could live.Next time you hear Billie singing"Hush Now...Don't Explain" remember that!
Shirley Horn "The Meaning of the Blues" unspeakably beautiful:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSWQaOdbz5w&feature=fvw
"Greater Love Hath No Man Than This",or"'tis better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" speaks of "A Love Supreme" as Coltrane reminded us through his horn.A love without boundaries which crashes through the paltry world of convention that we and our children may live transformed.
We must know "The Meaning of the Blues"in our lives and in our music for they are as one."'Trane,Bird,Lady Day....they knew and paid the price so that we could live.Next time you hear Billie singing"Hush Now...Don't Explain" remember that!
Shirley Horn "The Meaning of the Blues" unspeakably beautiful:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=jSWQaOdbz5w&feature=fvw
Everything's So Beautiful at the Ballet...Reprise!!
...it was beautiful then as now but not unconditional,so it crashed and burned lacking consecration.
It is now so gifted and has come back once again.I have learned from this great lady something of the meaning of true compassion and unconditional love...and so it is!!
It is now so gifted and has come back once again.I have learned from this great lady something of the meaning of true compassion and unconditional love...and so it is!!
The Tao of Crazy!!
Just recently I was called a "crazy mo-fo" by someone in a group of mine.I was thrilled....what a compliment! In a world that is being turned right-side-up at last it is helpful to know that the time of the heretic is here once again.
The orchestra that I was in of which I spoke yesterday played that way all the time.Taking utterly insane chances and threatening to go off the road going for that extra measure of "frisson"was part of our daily experience.
How to live that way without the booze became my challenge.I tried convention but found that I was never any good at it,nor did I want to be.Instead in my "gnosis"I discovered the pure joy of being nuts!!But how to apply this wisdom in a meaningful way?
The "Law of Attraction" comes into play here and I seek and find one of like mind and mission.Behind her sometimes crazy facade I find the most incredibly compassionate and loving heart that tugs at mine.
The "Law of Allowance" teaches me to risk well beyond reason,to woo,to go the extra mile and then some.To open my heart completely such that it might break,and then simply TRUST!!
The orchestra that I was in of which I spoke yesterday played that way all the time.Taking utterly insane chances and threatening to go off the road going for that extra measure of "frisson"was part of our daily experience.
How to live that way without the booze became my challenge.I tried convention but found that I was never any good at it,nor did I want to be.Instead in my "gnosis"I discovered the pure joy of being nuts!!But how to apply this wisdom in a meaningful way?
The "Law of Attraction" comes into play here and I seek and find one of like mind and mission.Behind her sometimes crazy facade I find the most incredibly compassionate and loving heart that tugs at mine.
The "Law of Allowance" teaches me to risk well beyond reason,to woo,to go the extra mile and then some.To open my heart completely such that it might break,and then simply TRUST!!
Monday, December 6, 2010
Sophisicated Louts!!
I was once a member of both a famous and infamous group, the London Symphony Orchestra of the late 60's and early 70's.We were known as the L.S.O.but dubbed "The London Shithouse Orchestra" by those less than enamoured of our exploits.
We had the ability to play like savages but with an exquisite beauty when required.At the height of our fame we were sent to Daytona Beach for a month in the summer for four years running.An all male orchestra in what was perhaps the divorcee capitol of America at the time.
The results were predictable:we played dreadfully (by our standards) and partied even more so.Nonetheless we managed to be rapacious predators who somehow were rather nice about it all,and judging by the results it was appreciated.
I had to leave shortly after because I could not have sustained the intensity for much longer without burning out.I must admit though with some delight that I have not forgotten how to be both a gentleman and a bit of a savage at the same time,and I rather think that it is not entirely frowned upon by a special kind of woman.
We had the ability to play like savages but with an exquisite beauty when required.At the height of our fame we were sent to Daytona Beach for a month in the summer for four years running.An all male orchestra in what was perhaps the divorcee capitol of America at the time.
The results were predictable:we played dreadfully (by our standards) and partied even more so.Nonetheless we managed to be rapacious predators who somehow were rather nice about it all,and judging by the results it was appreciated.
I had to leave shortly after because I could not have sustained the intensity for much longer without burning out.I must admit though with some delight that I have not forgotten how to be both a gentleman and a bit of a savage at the same time,and I rather think that it is not entirely frowned upon by a special kind of woman.
Dulcinea!!
I have been for much of my life an errant knight jousting at the windmills of my mind.Sometimes by sheer force of will I would contribute to others but more often than not,it was just self-seeking disguised as altruism.
Then one day nearly four years ago she burst into my life with the force of a super nova.No longer a dream or vision but a reality and most of all a challenge to be unconditional.I was not up to the task ,found lacking,sent packing.
My force of will availed me nothing and I stood at the turning point.I could either accept the challenge or turn my back on it.I retreated into the world of co-dependency to learn the final lessons and came close to death in the process.Before my "dark night"she came to me in a dream and told me that I would be all right and all would be well.Shortly after she returned after a period of two years of my not seeing her.
I had learned a little of humility and kept my distance in order to honour her sacred space in a way that I could not do before.Our eyes never met nor did we speak but the energy was palpable.
Suddenly last week we came together briefly and both spoke and looked into one another's eyes.The experience was truly overwhelming and I was gifted a vision of the synergy of our joining in mission together.
Now comes the test as it must,for I cannot control or manipulate this Goddess anymore that I can hold quilksiver in my hands.I now know the meaning of those words"they also serve who stand and wait".
Then one day nearly four years ago she burst into my life with the force of a super nova.No longer a dream or vision but a reality and most of all a challenge to be unconditional.I was not up to the task ,found lacking,sent packing.
My force of will availed me nothing and I stood at the turning point.I could either accept the challenge or turn my back on it.I retreated into the world of co-dependency to learn the final lessons and came close to death in the process.Before my "dark night"she came to me in a dream and told me that I would be all right and all would be well.Shortly after she returned after a period of two years of my not seeing her.
I had learned a little of humility and kept my distance in order to honour her sacred space in a way that I could not do before.Our eyes never met nor did we speak but the energy was palpable.
Suddenly last week we came together briefly and both spoke and looked into one another's eyes.The experience was truly overwhelming and I was gifted a vision of the synergy of our joining in mission together.
Now comes the test as it must,for I cannot control or manipulate this Goddess anymore that I can hold quilksiver in my hands.I now know the meaning of those words"they also serve who stand and wait".
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Sunburst!!
...for awhile now I have been in a rainy day.It has been at once chastening,humbling and ultimately cleansing and purging as I learned slowly but surely to sing and dance in it.I have experienced the most unimaginable sadness and joy in these last few years because I needed to bring together those polarities,to feel with such intensity, and still walk my walk.
The other day so very unexpectedly the sun burst through the clouds with such a blinding light that I was elated and terrified in equal measure lest I do another rain dance without realizing and frighten the sun away like I did last time.
One thing I learned on my rainy day though is that EVERYTHING in my life is now mission,and I need not seek anything else.Romance ,adventure even relationships are now consecrated to service and my Higher Self will guide me as long as I remember my sacred contract and trust.
The other day so very unexpectedly the sun burst through the clouds with such a blinding light that I was elated and terrified in equal measure lest I do another rain dance without realizing and frighten the sun away like I did last time.
One thing I learned on my rainy day though is that EVERYTHING in my life is now mission,and I need not seek anything else.Romance ,adventure even relationships are now consecrated to service and my Higher Self will guide me as long as I remember my sacred contract and trust.
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