...In my over 35 years in AA I never realized until now that there is a HUGE difference between detox and recovery.After the massive relapse I suffered below I had three more on Salt Spring Island that resulted in two more near death experiences.
I finally woke up and came back to Vancouver and have been in a recovery house ever since.I am moving into my new place and new life on Aug. 1st. in Gastown...more to come!!

The Darkest Night update:

I now have a bit of clarity.The trauma that I went through was to reconnect me with the humility that I had lost and which I must have on my spiritual journey.
September will be a tumultuous month and it has started for many already. No one will escape it ,it must be dealt with one way or another but denial will simply not work. Everyone will have to choose one way or another!!

The Darkest Night cont'd

As a result of a massive alcoholic binge which became a near death experience  only halted by my going to Detox,I have entered into a prolonged period of recovery which in itself is quite traumatic.
The expected period of convalescence has been over a month now and seems to have dovetailed into a significant spiritual upgrade.
It has left me for the time being in a state of non existence where my ego identity has been suspended and I feel as though in a dreamworld.
I have no idea how much of the old "me"will re-emerge but must accept that only the useful parts will come back.I know that I must place service to others foremost in my life but await guidance on how that may look.
The only thing that I know at this point is that all will be for the best ultimately.

The Darkest Night.

I am going through the strangest time of my life. Nothing compares to this in my experience so far.It will be an ongoing blog because of the vast changes that are taking place in my psyche. More to come.

1966 And All That!!

"We will neither regret the past nor wish to shut the door on it" ....those words resonate so strongly now as I go back to re-incorporate some of my experiences from the past into the present. If I just take the year 1966 as an example it tells me so much about my life now. I was in an extraordinarily hedonistic mindset having been dumped the year before by a girlfriend who I was convinced thought me as inexpendable as I imagined myself to be. As a reaction to the unimaginable I attacked my life with a ferocity born of quiet desperation. The orchestra that I was a member of went from strength to strength dragging me along with it. We played for a month in Daytona Beach in the summer concertizing and partying in equal measure. There were memorable performances throughout the year and frankly some unmemorable ones too,especially in Daytona all couched in the maelstrom of what became known as "Swinging London"... to be continued

....it is hard to believe that it's been so long between posts for me but it tells a story.My "blogging" these days is pretty much on my Facebook page now and I will keep this only for my history as it may interest people. Thanks David https://www.facebook.com/david.gray.5439087

Miracle in the Void Part 2 contd.!!

....I thought I was done with it after the big purging of fear,but I was wrong. Shortly afterwards came the most excruciating boredom that I can remember and I was reminded that boredom is merely serenity out of phase.
A Course in Miracles says it all"If you could accept the world as meaningless and let the truth be written upon it for you, it would make you indescribably happy".